attempted to do this , now my finger is covered with all black pen inks. 

find it so cute. hahaha.

tuesday.... it's like 11 days to fyp due date. 

my report is 50% done , 30% need to check out all the link , 10% blank.

sigh.. tough times.

my laptop shut down on me again , if it shut down on me 3 times or more will call up toshiba and send it for evaluation.

out of all the times, it got to fail on me now.

feel super piss because just spent 150 buck on repair it and now again!!!

i kept on feel tired, just feel so tired every single day.

didn't get to watch despicable me 2 over the weekends.. sigh..

2013 is really a turning point in my life , lack of luck , everything.

what's makes it special and better is having R. around , new friends made and my classmates whom help me and care for me when i'm absent and also my awesome fyp mates. 

miss having clique meeting, everybody is busy with school, fyp, with intern , friends, bf/gf.

sometimes i feel quite pathetic myself.

So so thankful for R. non-stop motivation , sacrificing his laptop to me just to makes my work easier as well as revision for ut. It meant so much to me.

which i might even do it for anyone , imagine his work already affecting his social life, can't even have a laptop around to entertain himself , to relax and maybe some other things he need the laptop , which i feel so so guilty about.

i miss him so so much , he is always busy.. sigh.

Although we might not spent alot of time together, sometimes less than an hour for a week, he still will make the effort to drop by , give me random calls to talk to me, to make me feel better, ask about my day, school , how's my family , my laptop .

Despite everything he truly care for me and do what he could for me, try his best to meet me , spent time with me , every time it rain , he will text me , drop by awhile sometimes maybe 10/15mins to pass me food and short chat despite being tired.

it feels good to know that someone is here for you , things are getting better and going smooth for both of us.

my love for him never decrease , despite the time we spent is so minimum , no expensive food , expensive gift , everything is kept simple ,

love how things are now , but i have more time with him that will be better. :)

we're not in a relationship and he is not obliged to do all these for me , but i'm glad that he did. 

he just meant so much to me right now, being in and not in a relationship is of no difference , but what matter most of how you feel about each other, things are great now, which i'm really glad it does. 

i hope i could do the same for him if he has any problem or feel unhappy, but i'm just not good at cheering , to comfort someone , but i definitely do my best to make him happy and stay happy.

 i want to be there for him just like he did for me :)